shady

Sorry it been while since I wrote in here just dealing with a lot. I got a lot on mind lately.. so here it goes:

First off my trainer and I are no longer working together and it way I'm glad we not b/c I was getting tired of his lies and being two faced towards me. A while back I had Antoine(my trainer) and his son Zion live with me for little bit b/c he said he was getting divorced and need to find a place to live for little bit until he get back on his feet. So I told him he could stay with me if he need place crash for little bit. So he moved in and he said he would stay only for few days and help pay for expenses well the few days end up being almost 3 weeks. I never got any money to help pay the bills instead I got a whole lot of bull shit and lies. So after tossing and turning and thinking everything over I decided I had let Antoine and Zion move out b/c it was just getting too awkward having them live with me and not mention empty promises. Now you may think that I was trying get relationship out deal and that is FURTHER from the truth I was helping a friend who was in need. Instead I  got take advantage of and disrespected. He had always said that he consider me a good friend and will always be there me no matter and be there for me. This is so full shit! He left out the fact that he no intention of ever paying me. When I asked Antoine to move out  b/c it was just getting to awkward having him live with me and I didn't want be caught up in all his web of lies. I have lost all respect for him as a person and trainer. Its really kind sad if you ask me. Not only he was lying to me but everyone around him. I bet you anything he lies to his girlfriend that him and his son are currently live with. I wondering why they didn't live with them all long? is it b/c you didn't want your wife to find out and thought I could be your 'safe haven'?  The real fuck up part he showing his son its OK to have open affair with your his son's mother and now your live with your girlfriend and his girlfriend is showing her daughter that its OK to date man who still married and have him live with you. Either way I feel bad for those kids b/c they will never see what true love is. The funny thing is that both Antoine and his girlfriend call them devoted Christians. I'm sorry your not b/c if you were you wouldn't be commit adulatory!

All this bull shit it just fuels me to work harder in my workouts and push myself harder. I have changed up my workouts and starting push myself to my limits. I have also not taking bull shit from no one anymore. I'm tired of being disrespected so as soon someone trying play bull shit I quickly going check them to door. Here example I went with out a guy couple times we had great time and this past Friday me, my best friend Jess, him and his friend Rich all decide go out I though we going dinner but instead we went bar and from second we stepped in there the guy who I went out a few times start to disrespect me and ignore me. Around midnight Jess told me she got leave b/c she got go wake early in morning for work. So I told guy that I got go and all sudden he start saying all this bull shit and tell me that I should just put Jess into cab and stay with him. I was like are you freaking kidding me right now? get fuck out here! After arguing for about 20minutes I told him I was leaving. So I left and Jess and I got cab back to his place where my car was. 20minutes after walking out the bar he starts to blow up my phone by calling me and texting me asking where I was and why did I leave. I told him leave me the Fuck alone and never talk to me again. He was like your never going find guy like me again blah blah! I was like what fuck ever!

I'm stronger person now but it still doesn't give you the right to disrespect me and be rude. I'm pretty proud of myself that I was able stick up for myself. I guess you could say I'm growing a backbone. LOL damn it feels good.